Tuesday, August 27, 2013

Settle.

Let the dust settle at your feet, don't remove sand particles from your shoes because that's the sand from the graveyard. It lines the insides of your soles. Let the sadness settle in, let it find the parts of your heart it hasn't yet touched simply because there was no time. Let it invade, let it be as though you never felt happiness before. But then let it go.

Let your husband's perfume sit on the shelf in your closet so that your daughter can know how he smelled. Let his slippers lie in front of the bathroom so you can make wudu with them. Read from his pocket-sized Qur'an. Look through his wallet and remember the times he got his driver's license and library card. Wear his wedding band and smile at the thought of you both picking it out together.

See the gold coloured half-moon in the sky, believe it is made gold for him.

5 comments:

Eye said...

And indeed he will always be alive in your memory. May the mercy of Allah SWT ease your pain. May your reunion be in the gardens of Al-Firdous. May you grow ever-more resilient always. Ameen ya rub al alameen.

Anonymous said...

May Allah swt ease your pain. Insh'Allah, in return for your patience and steadfastness, may he reunite you with Amr in the beautiful gardens of Paradise.

sara said...

<3

Sumayyah said...

So beautiful.

Anonymous said...

Touched my heart. May Allah grant him jennatul firdous.