Sunday, April 25, 2010

5 Years of Randomly Placed

Today marks my blog's 5 year anniversary. I'm not sure whether to celebrate the deliciousness of creative expression or mourn the copious amounts of time I've wasted.

I was contemplating doing something special today, but my procrastination got the better of me. As it turns out though, I did do something special today without even knowing: I went to a seamstress to get a bridesmaid dress made for myself for my friend's upcoming summer wedding. I am wearing peach. I think it will be kind of hilarious (as you may know, there are very few things in life that I don't find at least slightly hilarious).

It made me think about how we go through life observing the changes around us - people marry and divorce, they come into our lives and leave, our family members grow older, fashion trends change, and seasons shift and merge into one another. But rarely do we contemplate how we ourselves have changed throughout all of this.

It's a little frightening to realize that change is so automatically internalized - that the small details we encounter in life have the potential to plant or water the seeds of love, compassion, hatred, sadness, wisdom. And do we change because the world has changed, or does the world change because we have?

I have changed in the past 5 years, and so have you! I bet most of you reading this right now weren't here at the inception of Randomly Placed. A few of the keepers have stuck around, but my readership evolved, just like I did. And doesn't all this change feel so seamless?

Some sad things have happened to me over the past five years, but also some of the most beautiful and lovely things have happened, too. And interestingly enough, only in retrospect are we able to examine the good things and good decisions of our pasts and conclude that we actually had very little to do with any of it.

The more I study my life and realize how much laughter and tears there were, and how utterly imperfect I am, the more I realize how free from imperfection my Lord must be. And how content I am in the deepest, most profound ways to have Him as my Creator.

I've learned so much, but I still have a long way to go. It has been an honour hosting you, and I hope you will stay with me as this journey continues.


sara said...

As does most things in life, this made me think of a line from a Smiths song:

(You don't really need to watch the whole thing):

"Oh has the world changed or have I changed?"

Anonymous said...

Beautiful post :)

Anonymous said...

clicking "like" (if it existed here)

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